Love somebody

I really want to love somebody.

So do I.
Funny, I guess all girls my age want someone to tell them he loves them, or at least he's interested on them. Right?
Funny, I'm one of those girls. Like I said, 'my' age. But that doesn't actually mean much. I've been my age for a long, long time, and still I don't usually match with the image you could have of those girls.
Truth be told, I don't usually match anywhere.
Honestly speaking, being me makes me feel lost in most of the usual groups of society.
I just don't see it. That's my thing.
So, when I do feel like I fit somewhere, there's this strong feeling of belonging that takes control of me and makes me do all I can possibly do to stay in there.
That's what happened with him.
I realized I felt safe with him, I felt as if I belonged.
Shit happens, though, and it all ended badly.
Now I'm wondering how much longer it would take for me to go back on my feet and try again.
It's specially the part of finding someone I could love and feel like I belong with him.
It's just too complicated.

I guess I don't actually fit the role of 'girl who wants to be loved'. I want to be loved, yes, but I also want to love.
I guess that's it. I just don't see it and as long as I don't see it, it won't occur.

I'm just going to bed now.
Last night I had a dream about my Jack and I just want to see him again. I really need to feel like I could love someone, anyone.

Nights.

                                                                                                                                Love somebody - Maroon 5